When you're at the end of the road, And you lost all sense of control, And your thoughts have taken their toll, When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul,
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass, Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins.
When it's time to live and let die, & you can't get another try, Something inside this heart has died ...
It's still your voice in my head & I hope it's still in your heart.
Truth is, I am missing you terribly but I bite back my tongue because I don't want to struggle with how I feel everytime I see you. No, it's not pride, but I wish you were here to get through my exams with me over the next 2 months. There's so much I can say but every night I go to sleep wishing so much to hopefully, see you the next morning and know that you'd be here to stay.
It is only after a fall that I am strongest, but when I think back upon what happened last year at this very period of time, surely I won't let history repeat itself? I don't tread through the same path I tripped along twice, but now is an exception. I'm wearing better shoes, trying to be more careful , but lately I just don't feel like watching where I'm walking.
Here's a big apology to my regulars, including Boss(Haha I know you come here sometimes) for my extremely lack-of-life entries. Not in an emo state but more of wanting to transit into Medidation mode. Hiatus here I come... :(
I guess we would have to walk a mile in each other's shoe, at least, What size you wear? I wear tens, Let's see if you can fit your feet.
With the exception of GP, it's 2 down and 6 more papers to go. Let's not talk about Math cos my chances of passing are once again, Anorexic. Yes... that's how slim the odds are. My only moment of glory came only after about 15minutes when I managed to solve a 6mark Maclaurin's question, though whether I'll get awarded full credit for it or not is Another issue altogether. Biology today and I kinda had to rush through, But this means I didn't spend much time looking out the window, watching birds, or imagining little stick people having fun on the playgrounds of diagrams in the paper. And this I'm glad to say, indicates that I squeezed out More than usual to fill the blanks, so I hope all that frustrating correction taping and waiting for the stinky white puddles to dry in order to write down a Slightly more perfect answer will be worth it. I think if I hit a 30 something out of 100, it'll suffice in putting a grin on my face cos my highest was only like, 20 plus? Sometimes it's amusing when I wonder how I made it to JC. There're still Papers 1&3 to conquer so I can probably put more effort into studying them and maybe, Just Maybe, Pass Biology this time? :>
Time to study for Chemistry Paper 3! Though I'm incredibly tired the only thing in my mind now is ...................................... You don't know, do you? I miss my friends alot :(
A week has flown by swiftly and my academic progress still shows Maximum peaks of Minumum effort put into studying. How? I'v been thinking too much about somebody and trips down Memory Lane which I now fight quadruply hard to evade(of course, to no avail) are wreaking havoc and sucking this damn life out of me!!>:( It's out to make me look like some lovelorn fool I know, but there's really no way I can get around this bend.
I think I'm gonna bloody screw up my A'Lvls.
Maybe I Really do have a problem with committment, either that or my desperation for consistency clings on like baby chimpanzees yet to wean off their mothers. Once I settle on a feeling, the exigency for it stick to me like a loyal canine is already played out in my cards. I still want a time machine, but earlier today I wanted Out.
